The smile I have on my face right now…..
I’m not sure, it’s like I’m trying to find the emotion that fits this. It’s not love.
Because to say “love” this early would be quite stupid
….. Gas from a good burger?
I’ve never felt comfortable naked in front of anyone.
Hearing the words “You’re beautiful”, all while waiting for the other shoe to drop
That’s what I was used to…
“You’re perfect the way you are”….
….. “But make sure you get healthy”.
I will not fulfill America’s current standard of beauty
I’m not trying to
I’m trying to hold on to MY beautiful
Yesterday I received a look of not simple lust
This man took hold of the extra curves I have above my hips
Absorbed every inch of my being through his gaze
….And told me that any woman who looks like me shouldn’t be scared of her own reflection just because she doesn’t fit the basic model of beauty.
Because that is exactly what it is:
Drawn within the lines of a coloring book with no space for imagination.
I am simply amazed
Because there are so many people out there who are afraid to acknowledge there is more than one acceptable body type…
He is not one of them
Between accepting not only my physical form
My near obsessive love for books
My un-ladylike way of screaming at the TV while playing Call of Duty
My crude sarcasm
….. And my fear of being accepted/being worthless
He reminded me that anything can change within the span of a single heartbeat
He showed me that not every relationship, you have to BE with someone
People have lost the definition of “relationship”
Now it is time for us to find it.
A friend is a form of relationship .
Beautiful and no less important or intimate than that of a couple.
Whomever my future husband may be….
There will be some serious jealousy towards him
Because I have deemed him as a new permanent
I calling the emotion: New.
Emotions are imminent when you meet someone you know will change your life